read my mind

I am sick…sick of being tired… sick of being strong… sick of being sad… sick of the real, wild, world. The stress and complications… promises, hopes and then frustrations. It just keeps on going on and on and on… I can’t hold on. The cycle lingers on with the pain afflicting the brain in my head… I want to shout… cry out loud!

For once, can I be weak? can i be real? can i show the pain and sadness without guilt? can i be me? ‘yung walang iintindihin but me. the selfish, greedy child within me…

I guess I am also tired of loving… the trial and error. it always lead to error… No matter what formula or pattern… it keeps on being a mistake. Maybe I am the mistake? I am the error. Show me the formula. Give me the calculator.

So sick and tired of this… rotten, wicked, worthless drama.

Welcome me home… soon.

hirap kaya ng nanghuhula! why cant you just tell me what’s the real score?! why cant the game of love be fair? para naman alam ko what are my options… in case i have choices!

sabi nga nung kanta "where do we go from here?" Why cant you have the b_ l _ s to tell me the truth?! hayan pa, mahiwagang salita, the truth!!!  the truth will definitely set you and me free baby!

whatever it is, this time i’m ready… to get hurt again or to be happy? let’s all wait and see…

yup, i’m fallin’ again… i hope this time its not just another trap. i am scared but i’ll give it another shot… one last chance. for me… for him… for us.

Ang puso ko’y panatag sa buhos ng ulan

Hindi nababagabag dahil Ika’y nandian

Sa init ng pag-ibig Mo ako’y mananahan

Hanggang matapos ang ulan…

Pagsubok at pagluha katulad ng bagyo

Hindi mababahala, Ika’y kapiling ko

Sa init ng pag-ibig mo ako’y mananahan

Hanggang matapos ang ulan.

O Panginoon ako’y iningatan mo

Kahapon at ngayon hindi magbabago

ang pag-ibig Mo…

(Whoever made this song, thank you po,

it suits me and i find it really inspiring…

salamat din kay rj who shared this song to me..)